ok, let's go, what you want

Sometimes I have a feeling when absolutely don't care about everyone and everything. So, it's often for me. Especially lately. And even now. So I want to write this message.

Now such a strange feeling, like I'm not going to miss, why do i need this? On the other hand, leave this place and feel very sad, because I experienced so much there, 9 years.

I love being home alone, but at times I was very bored one, at the same time, when someone comes at hame, I'm angry and I'm wanna again be one. Noone can understand me, my character, yeah, I know, it is frigging, I like to swear, it's pleasure for me, but after... I'm very sorry about this.
After all, most of all, I swear with those who are dear to me, in particular, Kuroi. Yes, I really blame myself, but he's not far behind, He has also not weak character. I'm tired of all you must understand, I'm tired of always fighting, I'm doing it all my life and what I get for it? - Nothing.
I think it's time to end this, I'm sorry, but I can't. I can see how you communicate with others, and I cant look at it, it's painful for me, everything for you - the same. yes, I certainly understand this feeling, when you're like many. That's nothing. I know how you cammunicate with my best friend and cause of this you can't imagine how it hurts. So I think either you or she. Option 'bout you immediately disappears, because I struggled so much for you, but what of you? - nothing. I can only go, You willn't notice, you would not worse of it, I even think you sigh with relief. because with me wasnt easy.And now, that's all, freedom for u.
How much agony it cost me to say this, but this is only the smallest part. You, Kuroi, I'm not going to talk nothing, because I don't want some kind of false, meaningless phrases. I don't even want you to read those are my thoughts aloud. I just go.

When the pain a little pass and the memories comfort.